Hello you beautiful cryptonaughts!!!
So what I have I been wasting, and not eliminating up until now?
Doing the job that I do is very mentally demanding, with high capacity decisions required, a lot of autonomy in working and leading a staff group and ensuring patient safety. With that comes desensitisation, and quite often when I finish I shift, I am mentally and physically feel drained, especially as I finish work and often go home to do more work on reports, care plans, best interest frameworks, answering e-mails, conducting training, etc.
The above is not time wasted, but what is, is the fatigue which I allow to overcome me sometimes, and with that, I often finish a shift, go home, complete any left-over work, and sometimes go straight into ‘me’ time, and today I ended up falling asleep from 15:00-18:00. I said to my partner, only allow me to fall asleep for one hour, however, I woke at 18:00, after she tried to repetitively wake me. What I learnt is:
-What didn’t I set an alarm, and take responsibility? Because I felt I had earned the right to pass on responsibility. Relying on someone else is a good thing, but not when it can come with the potential to pass ownership on to someone else as to why i incurred consequences.
-Why did I feel fatigue was an excuse to over-indulge in sleep, when I could manage my energy better, diet and fluid intake better? Because again, I felt I had earned the right to succumb to lethargy, but in the process had wasted precious time.
Another factor is that when I am working, my shift pattern can be very volatile, and unsociable in its hours, so quite often i feel that my time management needs to pertain to my commitment, and then inform ‘me’ time. This is the wrong way to manage my time, goals and commitments in which I have. Time does not stand still for any life form, and as such a strategy needs to exist to con-currently run alongside my work/life balance in harmony and synchronicity.
Guys I have to say; I have a lot of changes to make, but I have really implemented a lot already; I am skimming the fat from the meat, and that was a difficult task to initiate as there are a lot of ‘waste’ elements that exist within my life. It is a plethora of many influencing factors from self-regulation, unhealthy attitudes from friends, procrastination, negative attitudes, indulging in things and situations that do not help.
I mean I have been on the grind, and I have failed some hurdles, but I am accountable in being transparent not only to you guys, but myself, my family, work colleagues and my beautiful partner.
So who am I accountable to on a daily basis outside of this wonderful pub!?
My girlfriend, Emily, is a real source of inspiration and my daily motivator. She reinforces everything I do, and is scrutinising me more than ever, and I love it! I am keeping a daily journal of what I have done, splitting the day up in to time blocks, and conveying where I have been productive and where I have pertained to the choices that I do not want to be indicative of.
Every day on my journal, i leave a space for my partner to comment on, and give me feedback about my day, time management, criticism, positive re-enforcement, basically everything and anything. We both sign it, and at the end of the night discuss our views, opinions and plan for the next day!
God I love this you guys!!!